Love?
Not any time soon, i'll wait for the right time & right one. (:
This is where i pen down all my thoughts, and almost everything about my life.
I'm not perfect. i have my flaws too. But i try to be the best for myself and others.
Yes! Yes!
I live my life to the very fullest.
But i do not neglect the man above and the people around me.
Oh Oh Yea !! And I don't care if you hate me or bitch bout me, cause your just making me famous, baybeh.
Thanks for visiting my blog. Good day readers~. (:
I don't know how to put this feelings into words. I don't know how to overcome this. I'm stucked.
I miss you, abang. I miss your laughter, your jokes, your silliness. I miss those times. I miss the times, i slept with you on the bed with kakak together. We in one bed, covering ourselves with blanket, listening to 89.7 Fm , misteri jam 12. I don't know how long more i can take this burden. I miss you like so fucking much,abang. Every night, Every hour, Every minute, Every seconds i just can't help but to think of you. How are you abang?? I want to hug you, meet you for the last time before you go.
I dreamt that your in pain with the strokes. I can't bear to see tears rolling down on ibu & ayah's cheeks. I was there to hug ibu, for the very first time and to comfort her when she was crying badly. All i want is our family to be together, again. That is the only thing i want, nothing else. I swore, i fake a smile, when you was not there to celebrate dad's birthday. Just when i thought of celebrating your birthday with kakak together, for the first time on the 8th. These shits happened. You don't know how much it affected me deeply. I can't seem to concentrate in class, I can't sleep, thinking bout you. What will you have for lunch? dinner? supper? How are you going to sleep? Who is going to take care of you? Your clothes? wash your dishes? As i have been the one doing the house chores for you, and our family. Who is going to apply medication on you after the strokes? Who is going to be there for you? I don't want to lose you, not even a single soul of our family or my beloved friends and best friends. Memories of our family together, lingering on my mind, abang. All of them are fresh in my mind.
if i have one wish , i wish we could be together as one , again . ))= the pressure is on me, they are putting high hopes on me. I'm tired of everything. really.
