it hurts when someone you love, does not know about your feelings.
thinking of him, makes me realized that its just fantasy .
that i could no longer hope for anything from him.
maybe god send him to me, as a friend . just friends and no more than that .
maybe we are not destined to be an item, but just friends.
perhaps those tarts are just a sign of our friendship. well, i thanked god for him.
reading his ex girlfriend's blog, gave me a wake up call that i have to let go.
slowly, i'll get better in time. oh god ~
currently, i'm not in a mood. again, i'm stuck.
i want to have fun, fooling around making more friends.
but the thing that avoid me from doing so is this status.
we are living in two different world. mark, DIFFERENT.
i smoke, he doesn't. i party like there is no tomorrow, he doesn't .
everything that i does, he don't. i want to be single, but i want him and another him.
why can't i be like any other girls? stick to one? but i'm too young to stick. i want to have fun!
i'm a party girl, who live life to the very fullest. even if i'm a under aged. well, yes i do admit! ((:
i don't give a damn to what others got to say. happy go lucky, thats me. but how to? this sux. really~